Where would you like to spend your retirement?

in california in a big house by the beach. :)

Ask me anything

alright.

At some point, I've got to do homework. But it's saturday and I'm getting the college version of senior-itis. Recovery is still wonderful and lovely and the best choice anyone can make, but I'm gonna lose a little bit of weight. just a bit. here's how:

I have a whiteboard on my wall that says "149.8: fatass." and next to that, a corkboard with the following chart.

date..................weight...............reward...............................................................difference
11-17-10..........152..................none...................................................................0 pounds
11-24-10..........150..................diet dr. pepper....................................................-2 lbs
12-10-10..........145.................new library book..................................................-7 lbs
12-27-10..........140.................new bracelet........................................................-12 lbs
01-12-11..........135 ................from "fatass" to "fat".............................................-17 lbs
01-29-11..........130.................Stop prostituting..................................................-22 lbs
02-14-11..........125.................from "fat" to "chubby"..........................................-27 lbs
03-03-11..........120.................wear old clothes that are too small right now........-32 lbs
03-21-11..........115................from "chubby" to "better"......................................-37 lbs
04-07-11..........112................wear the smaller old clothes..................................-40 lbs
04-25-11..........108................from "better" to "good".........................................-44 lbs
05-12-11..........105................go swimming in public pool...................................-47 lbs
05-30-11..........100................from "good" to "perfect"........................................-52 lbs


I'm also gonna cut down on the carbonated drinks. they only expand your stomach. I'll only have one and that'll be when I buy my diet dr. pepper for my under 150 reward. And I'd really like to go swimming, so that'll be great inspiration.

I'm SO sorry!!!!

I just barely tweeted and looked at my @mentions. Then I saw a post from the lovely Dylphe and thought "Oh holy crap! I forgot about blogger!"

So here I am, again. Math is still kicking my butt, but I'm pro-recovery now!


That said, I'm on a mission to lose at least 40-50 pounds..... >_>


Buuuut no matter. I'm back and will start commenting on your gorgeous blogs soon.

I'm finding this all a little pointless

I'm fat. and I guess I've been "cured" enough so that I just can't do it anymore. on the plus side, I'm kinda-sorta-not-really quitting cigarettes. at the very least, I seriously contemplate if I NEED one every time I smoke. I'm up to about 12 hours without smoking.

I don't want to break my scale...

...So I'm not weighing myself. But I am FAT. looking at all my old pictures makes me want to cry. I didn't see how thin I was then, but I see it now. I want to be thin again! At least, I don't want to be this fat. I'd be happy with just 120, not even 108 like I was before. If you all want my twitter, it's pro_ana_tina. Dylphe has already graciously added me. I don't post much lately, but if you go WAY back to the beginning, it's pretty interesting.

speaking of Dylphe...she hasn't posted lately. :( I know that's pot calling the kettle black, but I worry about these things.

I gotta start class now, I guess. So see you later!

more pics of me--mostly pre recovery

 Using a Sari to show my friend what a hijab is. XD

 I look good with red hair!

 not so much with blonde...

pre recovery

name one person that you really miss

Jazz. For those of you who don't know, Jasmine was my girlfriend until we got into a fight, and she went out and got wasted and died in a car accident. It's been a little over a year now, and I still want her back.

Ask me anything