Where would you like to spend your retirement?

in california in a big house by the beach. :)

Ask me anything

alright.

At some point, I've got to do homework. But it's saturday and I'm getting the college version of senior-itis. Recovery is still wonderful and lovely and the best choice anyone can make, but I'm gonna lose a little bit of weight. just a bit. here's how:

I have a whiteboard on my wall that says "149.8: fatass." and next to that, a corkboard with the following chart.

date..................weight...............reward...............................................................difference
11-17-10..........152..................none...................................................................0 pounds
11-24-10..........150..................diet dr. pepper....................................................-2 lbs
12-10-10..........145.................new library book..................................................-7 lbs
12-27-10..........140.................new bracelet........................................................-12 lbs
01-12-11..........135 ................from "fatass" to "fat".............................................-17 lbs
01-29-11..........130.................Stop prostituting..................................................-22 lbs
02-14-11..........125.................from "fat" to "chubby"..........................................-27 lbs
03-03-11..........120.................wear old clothes that are too small right now........-32 lbs
03-21-11..........115................from "chubby" to "better"......................................-37 lbs
04-07-11..........112................wear the smaller old clothes..................................-40 lbs
04-25-11..........108................from "better" to "good".........................................-44 lbs
05-12-11..........105................go swimming in public pool...................................-47 lbs
05-30-11..........100................from "good" to "perfect"........................................-52 lbs


I'm also gonna cut down on the carbonated drinks. they only expand your stomach. I'll only have one and that'll be when I buy my diet dr. pepper for my under 150 reward. And I'd really like to go swimming, so that'll be great inspiration.

I'm SO sorry!!!!

I just barely tweeted and looked at my @mentions. Then I saw a post from the lovely Dylphe and thought "Oh holy crap! I forgot about blogger!"

So here I am, again. Math is still kicking my butt, but I'm pro-recovery now!


That said, I'm on a mission to lose at least 40-50 pounds..... >_>


Buuuut no matter. I'm back and will start commenting on your gorgeous blogs soon.

I'm finding this all a little pointless

I'm fat. and I guess I've been "cured" enough so that I just can't do it anymore. on the plus side, I'm kinda-sorta-not-really quitting cigarettes. at the very least, I seriously contemplate if I NEED one every time I smoke. I'm up to about 12 hours without smoking.

I don't want to break my scale...

...So I'm not weighing myself. But I am FAT. looking at all my old pictures makes me want to cry. I didn't see how thin I was then, but I see it now. I want to be thin again! At least, I don't want to be this fat. I'd be happy with just 120, not even 108 like I was before. If you all want my twitter, it's pro_ana_tina. Dylphe has already graciously added me. I don't post much lately, but if you go WAY back to the beginning, it's pretty interesting.

speaking of Dylphe...she hasn't posted lately. :( I know that's pot calling the kettle black, but I worry about these things.

I gotta start class now, I guess. So see you later!