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Monday, October 25, 2010

I was wondering why I didn't have any comments....

....then I realized I haven't posted. Sorry!

So the guy I prostituted with got mad cause he went all stalker on me and found this blog. Oh well. And THEN I told my therapist and she told me I had a 'pact' with her to not do it again. This is what I said:
"You do realize I've broken just about every pact we've had so far, right?"

She went on about how I need to find a girl/guy my age and just go out for coffee or something. What the hell? And also how I haven't ever had a real relationship and maybe, if I have one I wouldn't be so messed up.

Well, for that to happen, it would require someone to LOVE ME. And I, in turn, would have to LOVE THEM BACK. I don't see any possibilities for either of those happening.

On the eating front: Without my double life, I have anxiety again. I realize once again that I'm horribly fat and should stop eating until I die. Sigh. I'll post more later, I promise, but right now I'm depressed because my psychiatrist reminded me that I am unworthy of real love.


  1. how did he manage to do that? Weirdo.
    You are not unworthy of real love it's just hard to find. I've been single for so long I don't even know what it's like to be in a relationship anymore. I hunger for it to. Even though at the same time I don't. I feel like I'm to screwed up.
    Just like with being thin, I think there's to much pressure on being in love.

  2. Ugh creeper. Did he like the comment about his small penis? Haha!
    I'd love to be in a relationship too, I'm just too terrified of actually letting someone get close to me. It sounds quite the same with you
    sorry babe